May 24, 2016
Week 002 – Day 005
I spent most of the night very restless. I raised my feet with my sleep number bed to maximum, and I did notice a small difference in my leg’s size this morning, albeit I did sit up much last night. I am feeling like I may be losing weight, but that means nothing. We will see on Thursday evening when I weigh in. It is something of a lessor subject, but one that should be noted for all like me. Believe when I say I am humbling myself in order to document fully everything that one may go through during this time. I was having issues trying to wipe myself when going to the bathroom. It was hard to bend and reach around the girth of my body. As I did so, I could feel my liver pushing itself under my rib cage, indicating to me that my liver is very large at this time. Something my doctor has been concerned about for the time I have been heavy. In any case, for wiping myself in the bathroom, as of today, what I consider to be day 5, it has become easier. Food seems to be showing itself everywhere at this point. Watching TV has become challenging due to all the food shown in Ad’s and shows. This confirms to me that I am indeed a food addict. This is important to realize in oneself in order to fix the issue on a forever basis. One must fight moment to moment to keep himself/herself in check. My wife Melanie continues to be of great support, even going as far as getting some SlimFast Shakes (similar to what we drink as meal replacements) from Sam’s Club. They sell them in bulk there. She will be drinking a few a day with me, but not completely replacing her eating. That is true support…. to join in with the one you love. I am a very lucky and blessed man to have her in my life. We have also tried the sugar free, calorie free shaved ice syrup in an ice drink yesterday. Unfortunately, because there is no sugar to thicken the ice to Slurpee or margarita consistency, it comes out as basic snow cone ice with flavor. That stated, if you like snow cones, this is a zero calorie solution! We also ordered a few items to try from Waldon Farms… this company specializes in making zero calorie sauces and spreads. This may be good for when we introduce food back into our systems. It is funny, I never thought I would have this much to report. I can see how important it is now, not only keeping me on top of all I am doing right now, but also to serve others like me whom wish to know what it is like, and show them it is possible to do. Human’s were made to be healthy and functional. I allowed worldly things, and desires to get to me, changing me into what I am today. Nobody else is responsible for what I have have become… only me. As such, I am responsible for pulling myself back. The great thing is, there is an abundance of people willing to help me do that… and I do not have to face my problem alone. I am grateful.
Today’s FitBit Stats:
2355 Steps for 1.1 Miles and 3155 Calories burned. 1 Floors Climbed.
Last Night’s Sleep Recorded This Morning:
6 hour 21 min. Asleep last night, Awake X4, Restless X12
10AM – Chocolate Shake & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
12PM – Vanilla Shake
2PM – 1 Cinnamon Protein Bar & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
4PM – Chocolate Shake POWDER mixed with 16oz of shaved ice and a diet lemon/lime soda (I don’t like the powder)
6PM 1 packet Tomato Soup in 8 oz Water & 8 oz glass of water with Orange Fiber
8PM – Vanilla Shake POWDER mixed with 16oz shaved ice and a diet orange soda (Not bad. I don’t like the powder).
Calorie Intake for the day = 970